We all have those moments of CRS, but stroke recovery, causes those
moments to happen oh too frequently. Actually I prefer to sleep most of the
time; when I am awake I am afraid it will happen again. I am taking meds
for that and more meds to control my blood pressure, fluid
retention, cholesterol, potassium, and a daily aspirin,
whew!
Balance and concentration come and go, I cannot
stand up too fast because I am very light headed most of the time. My
memory is so wacky, that it scares me.
Things pop up for no reason, it just does and I repeat myself
either during the same day or even the next day; it must really irritate my
family.
At least I have not physically hurt anyone; I just
cannot control my words.
The doctor does not think that my face and head will
get
any better, but I hope he is wrong.
Some have a full recovery and it may take years so all i have is
time and pray that I do recover.
I also pray that my family forgives me for being such a pain;
none of these p ast several years were part of a plan.
My left ear rings constantly, and I can hear some sound now, maybe
10% is all, rare pains in my eye or temple, twitching of the eyelid or nostril,a
big strain to take a bath, fear of cooking, that I may forget the meal and start
a fire, my knees ache, maybe from these stairs, stiff neck, not sure that I
should be alone but at least it is quiet. I can rest peacefully, but I do
miss my family, and I miss the hugs.
Touch means so much even if it is a hand to hold.